sorry i know the video is 2 times...we all do mistakes :D :D :D :D thanks

an evening with other...

Day by day it seams that the autumm becomes the queen of the kingdom of the World….is getting colder and colder the nights are longer and the wind brings the cold air from the far north…and another cycle begins….

On Sunday I was at an Eid party invited at the house of an old friend...of course that I was sure I would see persons that I wasn’t very happy to see but we have to forget all when we have to do with a reason to be happy with the others…and for the others.

A true muslim party I think it cant be without those fabulouse cookies I think I ate something like 300g :D:D I couldn’t handel it because they were so grate with honey and nuts and almonds grate grate!

Of course there were even other types of food but thinking it was in the evening and after 7 pm I don’t eat I made already an exception with the cookies.

But all had a nice smell and interesting spices that I know or I heared…I will get more documented on this kind of spices….

There were nice women dancing moving their gracefull hands and not only…:P.all of them came with the most beautiful abaya or veil,I liked this, it was like a catwalk.

Of course I showed up.....and for the first time somebody explained me why the muslim girls and women look at us so strange... we are kind of mistery for them…as they are for us at least for me,I am sure a lot of my friends don’t think the same…

This family had realtives from Qatar, Tunis and Jordan invited…and one of the girls of this family that I think it was almost my age asked my friend to ask me what I do for having a skin like that I got shocked I said nothing special and told him to translate all she has to do infact the ritual of beauty I made I gived her all details …that it isn’t a big story and to drink milk, a lot of milk!

She told me thanks and embraced me..i didn’t aspected….of course in the shadows I felt his eyes on me and of course even she…I think she knows who I am and what I represented I had this feeling.

I know he looked for my eyes at least to meet but I holded on and keep smiling at least I can do this I don’t know how he felt seeing me there and I am sure even M (that is friend of both) had a difficult evening about this thing he even asked me if there is any problem because he is there I answered so full of lightness “should it be?” he gived me and answer that made me see he knows something of me…thing that again I didn’t aspected because I tought he didn’t knew me so well….”you answered light but deep in you carry the weight of this hole room. Don’t hide in yourself you may lose down there..look better around and see maybe is a hand to pull you out of there…”

What should I think now?? After what he said….today I was thinking in this…I don’t know what he meant well the sense is clear but I have the feeling behind this words there is something….well time will tell …

Another grate person I meet was the mother of my friend so nice….she told me the classical things they say to their guests “you brought the light into our house”I liked this and in her eyes I readed she was sincer and made me feel real good also the others were nice and explained me a lot things and they didn’t hide behind the barriere of their language as it happened before to me…

The song from today is in romanien my native language and it talkes about the bitter taste of a lost summer and a lost love..and how the autum comes and takes all away and how the love vanishes with an strong seawave…I love it….and the video is interesting…hope you like it even if I think there will be just one person who I understand romanien :D:D

easy like a sunday morning.....

SUNDAY MORNING…….

ALWAYS SUNDAY IS THE DAY OF REALX AND ENJOYING THE NICE LINES OF THE BED…..(EVEN IF IT IS AN OLD HOSPITAL BED- BUT NOT FOR LONG TIME…),THE CUP OF HOT CHOCOLATE AND THE CARTOONS ON TV….

BUT I AM SURE THE MOST OF US MAKE PLANS FOR THE NEW WEEK…SO I'VE DONE TODAY….THINGS I HAVE TO DO NEXT WEEK: (I START TO LOOK MORE LIKE BRIGET JONES :d) ….BUT WHILE MAKING THE THE LIST MY MIND WAS FLYING AT THE PARTY FROM TONIGHT…AND AT THE WINDOW..THE OUTSIDE WEATHER MAKES ME FEEL I LIVE IN LONDON AND NOT IN ITALY…IS SO FOGGY AND COLD AND RAINY… LIKE MY GRANNY SAID IS TIME TO COUNT MONEY AND IF U DON’T HAVE THEN MAKE BABIES :d:d:d:d

SO LETS GET DOWN TO BUSINESS WHILE LOOKING AROUND ON THIS WHITE WALLS …..DO THE LIST :D

1. TOMORROW MORNING CHANCE THE ADRESS FOR “ELLE”AND “VOGUE”
2. I HAVE TO GO TO THIS MEGA-STORE FOR HOUSE THINGS TO BUY SOME ROLLERS, PAINTS AND "ACE" TO CLEAN THIS WALLS(BY THE WAY U THING WILL WORK TO WASH THE WALLS BEFORE PAINTING?)
3. TO START WASHING OF THE APPARTAMENT TO TAKE OFF THE SMELL OF THE TABACOO (I CANT STAND THIS THING AND IS THE ONLY WAY TO TAKE IT OFF THE WALLS)
4. TO DECIDE WHAT COLOURS AND STYLE TO ORGANIZE ( HERE I NEED SOME HELP EVEN IF THE IDEA I HAVE IT…)

HERE I STOPED BECAUSE WHILE I WILL THINK I WILL WRITE….THIS WAS THE MOST QUITE SUNDAY I EVER HEAD….AND SO CALM LISTENING THIS SONG

I JUST CANT WAIT THE PARTY I AM SO CURIOUSE HOW THE EID PARTY IS…LATER I WILL POST SOME IMPRESSIONS AND TELL MORE HOT IT WAS…

when autumm comes....

Why always the fall changes our lifes...always after the hot summer we lived the autumm comes and brakes the magic of it...of the waves and of the sun,of a nice cocktail or of a night out with the friends finished by watching the sunrise on the beach... So another summer is gone and now we start to live again...even if the sun loses its power and the leaves have some chopper shades.
So...i decidet to change somethings in my life...
I talked some days ago with my best friend that is living in Paris and he gived me the best advice that somebody gaved me..He said:"The key to go on after the shocks of life is TO THINK,TO FORGIVE,TO FORGET AND TO LOVE AGAIN!!!"
So i decidet to do this thing!Women after they suffer the biggest waste in thier life...(love) change their hair...so i think i have to do the same...after it we change things that sourround us...i decidet to change things in my appartament..first i changed it (thats the advange to live with rent :D :D :D).So i tooked the newspaper and made the tour of Siena to find the right house...some were to expensive others to dirty others were to central others not that..who looked for the right house understands me! :D
And when my hopes were almost gone i finally find it!A little appartament of 43mq.a cross the central park with a beautiful view but not in that good condition..and this aloud me to negotiate the price less then he asked for...and this made me very happy!
Next step is to move on,so i moved on from my ex-house i tooked some 10 boxes and other 24 with clothes and shoes and a table... leaveing there hopes,dreams i made,fears,and tears...of course the rest wasnt mine...
The last year work and economy made me put some money appart even if i wanted to make a nice trip this summer my soul wasn't ready to do any...
Now i have to decide what style i should adopte..and how to divide the place..
But the most important think now is that i am in the middle of the room sitting on box and one bigger is making as table and a nice hospital bed but this makes me happy because i have the opportunity to think well how i do things..from tomorrow i have to make the big plan and so i will need some advices and i will share all my ideas here even if i know well there will not be a lot of people to read it and i have to thanks my friend from Finnland that remmbered me...the best way to open ur soul is to write...
The song from tonight is one that i listen a lot this days while moving is called :"LOVE OR LEAVE" i think is fair for you love with all heart or u set the other free and not hurt him ....

i feel like summer sun.....

i dont know why...but i feel easy and calm after all the storms that passed...maybe another thing made me forget such ugly things.......




i saw this movie and is fab!!!!it looks like a story who might begin...Let's hopeeee sooooo :d we will see in sicily what it will happen!

we all get what we merit.....

We all get what we merit.....Something strange happend today in the morning even if i was easy like a sunday morning....(how the song says).....i had in mind to call up my friends for a dinner at my house...like good old times...were we all get round the table ....and of course i had to cook for an army :D and something special because they are used so with the way i cook.i dont wanna say i the chef of LE CHIBERTA in PARIS noway but i do it with passion....so i decided to do this time something betwin the african cusine and the french tradtion plus our anters....our italian once...
As i see myself this days with a good old friend of mine that is from Cameroun and i think i have a crash on him....i always had something that attracks me to him but i never knew what it is and he also....i called him and asked him to make me company to the oriental supermaket we have here in milano one of the biggest.Where all the oriental,asian and african culture meet toghter under the most peaceful thing on earth: FOOD.Also i put him to ask his mummy for some adivices and he brought up this nice African Cusine book written in french!i didnt know what to choose so i made a list and i said i buy all i need and then i decide home what to do...we made the list....not that lil....bc i had to pass also at Garcon...to take the wine and others things...He waited to me to take a shower..bc of course i was sleeping when he arrived and we had breakfast toghter...and here were we to hit the road!:DTooked the car and there were we...
From the moment i got there a wave of smalles and colors tooked my mind away....So it begun the adventure....labels i didnt knew and understand....but i had the transaltor with me....while we were finishing and paying we met the new Simpson family!:D there was mr R. with his brother A. and i guess the future wife.....I was hit by a struck he was looking at me his brother also she was getting furiouse she became more black then she was...but i smiled and said "hi".He said an embaressed"Hi" his brother also she nothing...sure she doenst speak..but i said to her the same and a nice smile....They were shocked.Thanks god D. saved the situation and said " D babe let;s go!and i answer "yes"and we left when i got to the car...D asked me "he was right?!"and i said "yes"....and he said "ok i will not ask anything else"and i answered "well is nothing to say anymore when i say goodbye to a thing or person then is forgot for always"And he said yeah u are strong enough i know that and i am proud of u and huged me:D was suche a warm hug that i didnt got from time...and in that moment those got out also...i felt the way he looked at me..and gived D to drive my car i know he hurted bc nither he made it!but this wasnt all...
I live in an appartament quite big in a condominio very nice and is new....In the front of mine the city hall decidet to build a block of flats for the immgrants and new familys...Getting home and parking the car in the other block i saw somebody moveing on...so it was the new family i said "Oh Dio mio"!This was the worse news ever....but i said maybe he has it on the other side the view...What hurts me the most is that he is makeing the impossible to make me see how happy he is....When something is over is over forever.....
So we got upstairs and as the day was nice we got on the balcony to have lunch and i had the surprise that the matrimonial suite is at the same leavel...i dont understand this...dont u think is crazy???it means an obssesion !Anyway life goes on....i had a grate dinner and good time with my friends...and i cooked with D.what a nice experience...it gets toghter people and makes them feel something one for an other...and we talked and remmber good times...Who knows maybe is the begining of something....
The dinner was fab!!!turkey with caco souse.. i didnt tought before that it can be so tasty..And now we will see what will happend in the neibourhood :D:D:D:D
If he wants war then he will have war...but i will not do anything....bc all in life get payed...The song from today is.....LAST TANGO IN PARIS so it matches the food :

Today was very hot here....but i went for shopping...so i bout this pair of shoes another one in the dressing room :D:D::Dbut this saturday i have to decide with what i will wear them....mmm i have to see...