when autumm comes....

Why always the fall changes our lifes...always after the hot summer we lived the autumm comes and brakes the magic of it...of the waves and of the sun,of a nice cocktail or of a night out with the friends finished by watching the sunrise on the beach... So another summer is gone and now we start to live again...even if the sun loses its power and the leaves have some chopper shades.
So...i decidet to change somethings in my life...
I talked some days ago with my best friend that is living in Paris and he gived me the best advice that somebody gaved me..He said:"The key to go on after the shocks of life is TO THINK,TO FORGIVE,TO FORGET AND TO LOVE AGAIN!!!"
So i decidet to do this thing!Women after they suffer the biggest waste in thier life...(love) change their hair...so i think i have to do the same...after it we change things that sourround us...i decidet to change things in my appartament..first i changed it (thats the advange to live with rent :D :D :D).So i tooked the newspaper and made the tour of Siena to find the right house...some were to expensive others to dirty others were to central others not that..who looked for the right house understands me! :D
And when my hopes were almost gone i finally find it!A little appartament of 43mq.a cross the central park with a beautiful view but not in that good condition..and this aloud me to negotiate the price less then he asked for...and this made me very happy!
Next step is to move on,so i moved on from my ex-house i tooked some 10 boxes and other 24 with clothes and shoes and a table... leaveing there hopes,dreams i made,fears,and tears...of course the rest wasnt mine...
The last year work and economy made me put some money appart even if i wanted to make a nice trip this summer my soul wasn't ready to do any...
Now i have to decide what style i should adopte..and how to divide the place..
But the most important think now is that i am in the middle of the room sitting on box and one bigger is making as table and a nice hospital bed but this makes me happy because i have the opportunity to think well how i do things..from tomorrow i have to make the big plan and so i will need some advices and i will share all my ideas here even if i know well there will not be a lot of people to read it and i have to thanks my friend from Finnland that remmbered me...the best way to open ur soul is to write...
The song from tonight is one that i listen a lot this days while moving is called :"LOVE OR LEAVE" i think is fair for you love with all heart or u set the other free and not hurt him ....

i feel like summer sun.....

i dont know why...but i feel easy and calm after all the storms that passed...maybe another thing made me forget such ugly things.......




i saw this movie and is fab!!!!it looks like a story who might begin...Let's hopeeee sooooo :d we will see in sicily what it will happen!

we all get what we merit.....

We all get what we merit.....Something strange happend today in the morning even if i was easy like a sunday morning....(how the song says).....i had in mind to call up my friends for a dinner at my house...like good old times...were we all get round the table ....and of course i had to cook for an army :D and something special because they are used so with the way i cook.i dont wanna say i the chef of LE CHIBERTA in PARIS noway but i do it with passion....so i decided to do this time something betwin the african cusine and the french tradtion plus our anters....our italian once...
As i see myself this days with a good old friend of mine that is from Cameroun and i think i have a crash on him....i always had something that attracks me to him but i never knew what it is and he also....i called him and asked him to make me company to the oriental supermaket we have here in milano one of the biggest.Where all the oriental,asian and african culture meet toghter under the most peaceful thing on earth: FOOD.Also i put him to ask his mummy for some adivices and he brought up this nice African Cusine book written in french!i didnt know what to choose so i made a list and i said i buy all i need and then i decide home what to do...we made the list....not that lil....bc i had to pass also at Garcon...to take the wine and others things...He waited to me to take a shower..bc of course i was sleeping when he arrived and we had breakfast toghter...and here were we to hit the road!:DTooked the car and there were we...
From the moment i got there a wave of smalles and colors tooked my mind away....So it begun the adventure....labels i didnt knew and understand....but i had the transaltor with me....while we were finishing and paying we met the new Simpson family!:D there was mr R. with his brother A. and i guess the future wife.....I was hit by a struck he was looking at me his brother also she was getting furiouse she became more black then she was...but i smiled and said "hi".He said an embaressed"Hi" his brother also she nothing...sure she doenst speak..but i said to her the same and a nice smile....They were shocked.Thanks god D. saved the situation and said " D babe let;s go!and i answer "yes"and we left when i got to the car...D asked me "he was right?!"and i said "yes"....and he said "ok i will not ask anything else"and i answered "well is nothing to say anymore when i say goodbye to a thing or person then is forgot for always"And he said yeah u are strong enough i know that and i am proud of u and huged me:D was suche a warm hug that i didnt got from time...and in that moment those got out also...i felt the way he looked at me..and gived D to drive my car i know he hurted bc nither he made it!but this wasnt all...
I live in an appartament quite big in a condominio very nice and is new....In the front of mine the city hall decidet to build a block of flats for the immgrants and new familys...Getting home and parking the car in the other block i saw somebody moveing on...so it was the new family i said "Oh Dio mio"!This was the worse news ever....but i said maybe he has it on the other side the view...What hurts me the most is that he is makeing the impossible to make me see how happy he is....When something is over is over forever.....
So we got upstairs and as the day was nice we got on the balcony to have lunch and i had the surprise that the matrimonial suite is at the same leavel...i dont understand this...dont u think is crazy???it means an obssesion !Anyway life goes on....i had a grate dinner and good time with my friends...and i cooked with D.what a nice experience...it gets toghter people and makes them feel something one for an other...and we talked and remmber good times...Who knows maybe is the begining of something....
The dinner was fab!!!turkey with caco souse.. i didnt tought before that it can be so tasty..And now we will see what will happend in the neibourhood :D:D:D:D
If he wants war then he will have war...but i will not do anything....bc all in life get payed...The song from today is.....LAST TANGO IN PARIS so it matches the food :

Today was very hot here....but i went for shopping...so i bout this pair of shoes another one in the dressing room :D:D::Dbut this saturday i have to decide with what i will wear them....mmm i have to see...

never judge a book by its cover..

Never judge a book by its cover...this is what i always tought...today a good friend of mine made me read one article,first of all i thank her....and it really made me think that things arent always as they look.The author was right in some points but i felt like she didnt approved the realtion betwin one muslim and one catolic or other religion....well i dont agree with that....and i dont think that even if we have diffrent clothes and act diffrent this mean we are superficial...or we dont have our pride is true that the biggest part of us likes to be free and do the most crazy things that we can do but everyone of us is responsable for its acts and facts...Isof t true what she said about the young muslims that come in the european or nordamerican countrys to study.I had an example this year in school 15 youngmen from an muslim country(i will not say the name bc i dont want to generalise) came to study for a year with us in the uni.It was a discrasse since they came until they left....they were very rude and bad educated in all meanings beginning from the personal hygiene and with the compartament regarding the teachers that are some heavy names in the jurisprudence...but from another way i had a realtio with one for 2 years and i knew it wasnt like that or tryed to be a don juan with me...there is the family who didnt liked me bc i was iffrent and they tought i was dominating him and bringing him to forget his family or roots!i never tought to make such things!and just like a otught...when he was home we never ate pork or alchool drinks...i respected all but he didnt respected my proud....
This is why i ended bc i have my proud and nobody will pass over it nither the person i loved...now?!I met the other day an old friend that made me remmber good times...and who knows what it happen...BIZOU my dear friend!

i am becoming a coutre....

This afternoon i fineded some materials.....i dont know why but i want to do something with them...but sure i am not giving them on the hand of somebody...i will fix something i want to make a dress like i saw from Pucci :d so i make something to pass the time until i go to sicily....:D just cant wait!!!and now this i will make this dress....so tomorrow morning i am going to buy the things that i need...to make it in the room i have left free now...i will make my atelier...who knows maybe tomorrow i will become a lil "Coco" :D:D:D:D

the story of my abaya.....

This is for my friend from Finnland.....This abaya i bought it when me and my family were invited to the Tunisian Embassy in Roma for a ufficial party...And i tought with my mother would be nice to get some traditional clothes....and how the holiday was near we decidet to go to Tunisa,Tunis...so we went to the souk (i think thats the name for the market...or medina)and begun looking for something and so after 10 veils and some maters of silk (i go crazy for silk)and some nice bracelts of silver....(in Tunisia silver is so nice and cheap plus are art pieces after my opinion),We finded this shop....there were a lot of them....and was a male as shopassistent...and i can tell he knew something about fashion....So is glamours...and it had also the veil..that has the model at the ends...it is so nice the material and it still has the nice small it had when i bought it.....it something like incense....The wife of the Ambassador admired it so much...and i love it aslo....