Thursday, February 11, 2010

GOOD-BYE ALEXANDER MCQUEEN......


British fashion designer Alexander McQueen has been found dead after taking his own life.
The 40-year-old committed suicide just days after the death of his beloved mother, Joyce, last Tuesday.
His death also comes just three years after his close friend, Isabella Blow - who plucked him from obscurity and helped him become a star - killed herself.
McQueen, who was christened Lee but used his middle name for his label, was found at his luxury flat in Mayfair, central London. It is believed he hanged himself;
His death comes just days before the start of London Fashion Week and weeks before he was due to unveil his new collection at Paris Fashion Week on March 9.
His design company said in a statement: 'On behalf of Lee McQueen's family, Alexander McQueen today announces the tragic news that Lee McQueen, the founder and designer of the Alexander McQueen brand, has been found dead at his home.
'At this stage it is inappropriate to comment on this tragic news beyond saying that we are devastated and are sharing a sense of shock and grief with Lee's family.
'Lee's family has asked for privacy in order to come to terms with this terrible news and we hope the media will respect this.'
Two police officers were outside the entrance to his flat, which is in a six-storey red-brick building.
Scotland Yard said police were called to the property by the London Ambulance Service at 10.20am after he was found dead.
A police statement said: 'Next of kin have been informed, however we await formal identification. A post mortem will be scheduled in due course, an inquest will open and adjourn in due course. The death is being treated as non suspicious…….

Monday, February 8, 2010


this is all i can say for tonight.....i got this song today in car.....and got melancolic......:( still like it.....

Sunday, February 7, 2010


the world crushed in the last months for me....i feel like a zoombie work work work work study study....
i need a brake.....girls remmber to forget a love or to pass over a suffering u dont have to leave urself in the arms of success...it makes worse...bc in the end of the day,when u come back home.....u are still alone...listening to ur cd and drinking a nice glass of wine listening to an old song....

i need new air...i want to move from this town that i cant stand...i cant stand seeing how other are building their own happyness on the tears of somebody else.....is just not fair....

i am really thiking to get some professional help....bc i dont eat,dont sleep, i still cry sometimes i ask myself didn't i ended my tears?there is a shop where can i buy them?

i feel like i am carrying the age of the world on my sholders.....so heavy and old......this is what i see in the mirror......but i guess this stuff makes us grow....

last night i woke up crying....i couldnt stop.....in the end after 2 hours i stopped it takes some courage to say i cryed....and to admitt ur own tears...even to realize that u are crying...

i stayed up until the morning and see the sun rise....but there was snowing....i felt like i was living one of hans christian andersen's storys.....

just put the cattle on and make some tea....without cookies!cookies are bad!they get all of u on ur lower side :P :P

i was looking on my windows....we are in the end windows.....we can leave people look in or we pull the courtin....we can be lightend or we just love the dark....we can open ourselfs or we can close....we let the sun or we hide from the sun....but we open on a rainy day how strange we are?!?!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmDWvGKLzBE one of my favorites songs....

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

i am still alive....

i cant see my head of work!!!!!!!!!!why i started again?i think i become a workacholic...ufffa...tonight or tomrrow i hope to have time to tell all things that happend to me this days....

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

letter to the lost love.....

Dear lost love,

In the heart of the night u came in front of my door, the most of the people are already sleeping!She knows you came?what u told her?

You said u want to talk…..what u want to tell me?your words are baldes inside of me…they hurt me more then pain without limits when a limit doesn’t exist…

I think you should return to her……I don’t want to see you every second looking at the celluar telling you will come soon home and you are busy…go to her!turn back…this time you don’t need an excuse you shouldn’t hide….

I don’t want to feel in my house her perfume…let it where it is!!!if she won what I lost is invane to tell you I love you now…

Give her all the roses of the earth but the spines let them here with me……all your things I put them in a suitcase toghter with the tears I cried for you…I don’t want to aspect my end when I know there will be no end…

Turn back to her…never I tought that will come the day when I had to lose you….our love for me was unbreakable….

Turn back to her…don’t make her worry…she must wait you for dinner…and remember when you hug her again…at least think a lil like when I was there….turn back to your house,to your half….

You tell me she is just a form…but she is a woman….i feel pitty for her…but one good thing you did…with your actions you gived me the pride and the liberty back..

Don’t worry for me I know how to lose…I am a woman and the world for me will not end here…all viceversa..it starts now…

I offer you a tea with this weather we all need one….i look at you …I cant belive I loved you….you say you want to close all the bruises….but at what will serve all this???

Already every foto we had I closed it in a box and it will preserve itself…in the book of our story…like a chapter…a monument in our memory…you are pathetic, you are so ridiculous, so false when you try to be diplomatic …you want to set me a trap..like other times…but I will not fall in the game of 3 persons-realationship…

And how is this story u feel the wish to touch me?to kiss me?until where you want to arrive?you really consider me stupid…oh good…now you are even diabolic…poor her…I don’t want your passion..because passion is a bottle that will finish…and who will take all?not me…I would be the 3rd here…..no…..she won what I lost….she should be happy…better go home she must been waiting you…

And so you leave..we say goodbye for the last time….i smile…and you cry…I think is too late for your tears and fears…maybe you realize you did a mistake coming here….

And so in the biggest silence of the night I close the door behind you…and behind of all we had…

Is the first time I feel unchained…and free..betwin the tears….I cry…bc I am proud of me..and I feel like a true women…

The power of saying “no”makes me feel the queen of the world…I will take the best from every second…even if I said I will never be able again to talk with you and not to suffer now I feel free…and happy…and my eyes from today will not be sad anymore….

I am rebirth again…without you…alone…but I feel happy…and I know that men are babies by acting and thiking…that’s why the world are leaded from women…bc we are stronger…

I really don’t understand why you came…and why you lied to her…I am sure she knows…a woman understand when a man tells her a lie….but I guess she doesn’t have the power to tell you…this are we women we are happy with little…

I wish you all the happiness in the world and all the love …even if I see that you are looking for it and you look for it in other placeses then where is ur place next to your wife….

The one that tried to make you happy……….

P.S ADVICE: THINK,REMMBER,FORGIVE AND LOVE AGAIN!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

i am back!!!

it was beautiful.....i had so good time and fun...but also the memorys came back to me and it made me think better to all that it was and it will be....i miss him....a lot...i never admitted it before...but he changed his life....and i have to accept it this makes me more woman to admit i lost....
i will write a letter it will be my adieu to you....
school started...i missed the university...and we are all back to work...
and the fall is getting deeper and deeper in our souls....

Friday, October 2, 2009

preparing...

what we should take in a wellness trip???mmm...i dont know but i will figure out until tomorrow bc i am leaving for 4 days of spa....today it arrived my robe...satin robe...i have a fix for lingerie...so i adivce u to take a look at this online shop is LA PERLA one of the most exclusive labels but belive me is an investment...For example my mother has on pijama and she has it from 4 years it looks still new of course u should know how to care things...how to wash what detergente you should use....is a long story this of heart of clothes....